Change is good. Change is really good. But we cant wait around for it, -I- cant wait around for it. It wont come to me. I need to press the button and take the initiative.
Correction I will press the button. I am taking the initiative.
I had, in simple terms, a really good weekend. The worlds really beautiful, you know? Not always, but we can make it a nicer place, for ourselves, for other people.
And so. Yes. Its been on my mind for quite some time and I am, yes I am, changing my name. Probably legally, though not for a while. But I wish to be Jordan no more, its really not me, doesnt suit me, doesnt sound right or natural to me. Jordy, I can do that for a while. I connect that name differently, and only hear it from people I love. But as of now, and hopefully as soon as people can adjust, Im Danny. Dannison, as it were, and now already to those I know and love, Danny. Not for anyone but me. My name, who I am. Me.
I went to a party, yes, me. I climbed out of my hole that is a house and waded through my anxiety to be with my Beamish lovely Anna and I went and had a great time, surprisingly. Strangers and people I didnt know, and as soon as the anxiety faded I enjoyed myself immensely. And I introduced myself once, as Jordan it just tasted bitter. Felt, like plastic (not plant). I discarded it. Each new person, next fresh face, out it slipped Danny. Danny. Effortless, slight, but not insignificant. Smooth and good and exactly where and what its supposed to be. I spelled out my name /my/ name for someone, questioned of Danny with an i or y. Dannison, I said, Danny for short. She said it was pretty and shed never heard it before and I smiled, and Anna smiled, and she said, Its her name.
Small steps. One leave uncurls at a time. Sometimes you uncurl. And sometimes you bloom.






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~~I don't know why I feel this way
I don't know if it's right or wrong
to laugh at misfortune,
Darkness can never last too long,
when you laugh in its face....~~
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~~I don't know why I feel this way
I don't know if it's right or wrong
to laugh at misfortune,
Darkness can never last too long,
when you laugh in its face....~~
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~~I don't know why I feel this way
I don't know if it's right or wrong
to laugh at misfortune,
Darkness can never last too long,
when you laugh in its face....~~
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Had I told the sea what I felt for you, it would've left its shores, its shells, its fish, and followed me.
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